Sept - Oct - Nov

Experiences are made up of practical knowledge you have ascertained up to that point. I enjoy the social structure that surrounds the Christian community, especially in the wide range of diverse cultures. This is Kingdom, Basileia.

I had found it hard to focus and discipline myself. Its come to my realization more and more that nothing else satisfies except worship and prayer. "God, help me do what I need to do to glorify you. Make my intention not to impress anyone or even to improve myself, but make all I am be unto you." Consistency; That's what I've been learning recently. To improve on a few little things that I want to be good at, rather than trying to improve on the vast amounts of advice given by influencers.

The life I want for kids is taking it all in. The smells, the colors, the exertion, the quench. Healing what was never wounded. Why do kids connect with cartoons? I have the opportunity to be me, the greatest feat of all. I think cartoons exemplify the basics of life, causing us to laugh.

A question asked of me recently that caused discomfort was about how my prayer life has been in relation to my future. How could I respond amidst uncertainty, but do I ever dream of certainty, or is that simply conventional? I'm reading the story God has written for me. Please don't spoil it.

Forgiveness? I never thought I'd find it to be much of an obstacle. Though it certainly is. For lack of ability to put words to it, I'll provide a narrative: My mom takes my favorite shirt for reasons enough for herself, but reasons enough that I can not tolerate. It was out of my control, and it seems malicious. Is it? No... It's not. My interpretation is of the cloudedness of my feelings. Mine, my right, my want, without any regard for those it influences. Those who it influences are exactly the cause of my fury. How dare she be concerned about me!

What about grace? Regardless of whether it's unmerited or undeserved. You are saved by grace; your right is not to hold others to their duty but to hold yourself to your own duty. Get over the yucky feeling in your mouth that you get when you think about the infraction. Process it and free yourself. Holding them captive requires you to hold them there. You don't know what you are missing out on when caught up in emotion. This person has at least an ounce of God as a being of creation. Don't think that you can disgrace His creation by withholding honor to another. You are not above.